Now if you would have asked me 5 years ago, what I wanted to do with my life… I would have looked you straight in the eye and told you” I have no f***ing idea!” And that would have been the truth. I had no idea what I wanted to do. I mean don’t get me wrong, it’s not that I didn’t have things that I love or passions, because I did. I was an equestrian who love my horse more than most people, someone who thought science was just the coolest thing (I mean come on my first Instagram photo ever was E.coli on an EMB agar plate. I thought it was there prettiest bacteria that I’ve ever seen. For real though, it’s beautiful. Check it out for yourself). And I knew that I wanted my life to be fun full of adventures and amazing experiences. Other than that, I really have no idea what I wanted to do… Looking back now, though, I did always love acting. I still had this secret desire to act, but the funny part though is that at the time, I had no idea I did. Haha, I remember wanting to sign up for auditions for the school theater but never did because I did have the confidence in myself that I do now… It wasn’t until I took my first acting class in college. I will always remember it because it was the class that changed everything for me. It was something that I’d never experiences in a class before. I actually wanted to learn everything about it & I never wanted to miss a class.
I was on cloud 9…Then life happened, and I went through some serious life-changing experiences (those of which, I would never wish on even my greatest enemies), and I had to do my own self-discovering to do. But acting never left my mind. It was always there. Slowly and slowly having a stronger presence. I even start reading acting books (secretly, of course, cuz I mean what would my parents think about me pursuing acting.)
Have you ever had this feeling in your gut, that you know without a shadow of a doubt this is what you are supposed to be doing? Well, I had it. And I had it bad and eventually I had had enough of secretly wanting this thing and not going after it. I felt that because I wasn’t pursuing acting that it was slowly eating away at my soul…and the funny thing is is that I still only had that one experience of acting in my college classroom, and I still had this feeling. I had to do it…And I did; I jumped in with both hands and feet. I was like ignorance on fire. I didn’t really know what I was doing, but I was doing it anyway. And it’s been the best thing I’ve ever done for myself. I have never regretted a single day.
What is acting to me? Well, let me start off by saying that I don’t really like the word acting per se. For me, it feels fake and inauthentic. A better phrase is living truthfully in imaginative circumstances. And it’s not about you fitting into the character, but rather the finding the character within yourself. Something that I really didn’t expect is that a huge part of acting is discovering who you are and “how you are knitted and made”(Natalia Leigh). Which is kind of funny because that’s what really started me on this journey for acting, simply discovering who I am….Obviously, this is just the beginning, and I am so excited to see what awaits me in this journey. So far, I have met a fantastic group of people who I feel I finally fit in with. It only took like 20 years, but I finally found my tribe ❤️.
So my goal is to simply share my journey with you, as I go. I want to share everything, from the first class to my first film and everything from then on. I think it’s important to hear the whole journey because nowadays, we only hear the big success and the big wins that seem like they happened overnight. But I want to share with you my whole journey and everything I learn in the process.
I look forward to sharing my life with you and creating friendships that will last a lifetime.
P.S. Oh yeah, and I forgot to tell you that I have a youtube channel where I make my own short films and sketches. Go check it out. I have a couple great hits.❤️